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Hot and Wide Awake

Sounds like the title of a Skinimax movie doesn’t it? I’m in NJ, done with fasting and atoning for the vows I broke last year, for the wrongs I committed and the rights that I never got around to doing, and wide awake. Wide wide awake. The kind of awake that is uncomfortable this late because you know you are tired, you know that you are getting up in 5 hours, you know that only getting 5 hours of sleep is going to throw off your entire week, and so on and so forth. So after trying and failing to fall asleep I’ve decided to at least be somewhat productive.

It’s 2:31 AM and I’m sitting on a footstool because the chair in this room has 10 text books stacked on it and I’m too lazy to move them. So, I’m awake yet lazy. I’ve been surfing for the last 45 minutes, catching up on the news and on some blog reading. I work with some very talented people who have their own blogs. So, I started with their writings.

I first checked out Chris’s blog to see if anything new has been posted. Nothing’s new. I wrote last month that I would on a weekly basis post a “Best of Blah blah blog” entry because I think his blog is that good. I think Miss Universe’s skirt getting torn off by her own wayward stilletto heel is post worthy. I’m post it tomorrow.

I then went to Stephanie Klein’s blog which is fantastic. I was talking about her at break fast tonight with someone who wants to be a graphic designer. I mentioned how talented she is and then mentioned how she took all the photos that are in the rooms of the Hotel Gansevoort and then how her writing was featured in the Independent, a London newspaper, back in July, etc etc. Basically, I went on and on about her – with good reason. She is hightly talented, multi-facetted and very impressive. I’m slightly intimidated in her presence because I want to be as creatively productive as she is but I’m not. At least right now. I could be if I really tried. I haven’t really tried. I will one day. Maybe. Now that I’m thinking about Stephanie, I’ll mention something that has been bugging me for almost two years now. If you go to her blog and read it you’ll soon discover that she was divorced and is still pretty hurt. However, at work she still goes by “Stephanie Dines” which was her married name. I know that she was divorced over a year ago and quite possibly two because she was married when my incident occurred and was divorced when I returned to work. So, sometime between January 21, 2002 and December 4, 2002 her marriage ended. I have always wondered why she hasn’t changed her name back from Dines to Klein, especially since she is as hurt by the breakup as she lets on in her writing. Maybe I’ll tell her about this post and finally ask her about it. Maybe I’ll do that next week.

Ah, there are so many maybes in the early hours of the morning. Maybe I’ll see “Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow” one night this coming week. Maybe Jessie and I will see an apartment tomorrow that we would actually like to buy. Maybe I’ll finally start writing my collection of short stories. Maybe I’ll finally come up with an original and viable business idea that will allow me to work out of the home and become rich and famous. Okay, maybe not famous but definitely rich. But the kind of rich that invariably leads to fame because “damn, that guy is so rich.” Maybe monkeys will fly out of my butt. We’ll see. I should try to go to bed again. I’ve been on the computer for over an hour now. If you see another post at 4:00 AM you’ll know I wasn’t successful.

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